i write when my brain could not find a fullstop of running at a 143km/hr and yea, so it stays up. AND also, for therapy.


 i know i break myself first before anyone could ever break me. if anything, there’s nothing i could do if there are wrongs in the way i love you and how i carry myself. i’ve gone thru so much heartbreaks and sleepless nights, and unstoppable thoughts, trying to fix everything AND NOT letting myself take a step further. my heart was also shaky and  i wasn’t able express the things in my heart. don’t love me half- heartedly, love me in my coldest stares, and love my language of love. if you heal only in a few days, i won’t let you make me spend another 6 months trying to make my heart sound again.

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